It was exactly a month ago that I taught a
community outreach workshop through the Palm Beach Poetry Workshop. The theme:
“Gifts Given & Received,” & was to be held at the Crest Theater in Delray Beach.
The Director of Community Outreach thought it
would be fun. “I really think this should be a fun workshop,” she told me.
“And our participants just want to generate new poems—not attend a highly
academic seminar.” Fun? And paired with “poetry workshop” to boot? Was she friggin’
crazy? My experiences in Graduate Workshops (Capital “G” & “W”, if you really know what’s good for you) led me
to believe that the purpose of workshops was to unravel bones, no?
“I’ll bring the snacks & cider!” she added.
It took three weeks of serious thinking in preparation for
the two & a half hour class. I emailed colleagues & former professors
& consulted some literature; a few tips here & there. Finally I was
ready, & then an amazing thing happened: I threw it all away—all except the
prompts & a couple of worksheets I’d made. I had the entire workshop
scripted, only to decide as I was sitting in my car inside the parking garage
to leave it all behind. I decided I didn’t want to be just another piece of
furniture in a classroom—I wanted to be there,
in the moment.
I wanted to have fun, too. Then I proceeded to walk into a
room where I was the only male in a room filled with females, not one of them
under the age forty-five. Most were old enough to be my grandmother.
And yet, it
only took only two writing prompts for a truly amazing thing to happen: a
breakthrough. The most rewarding thing that can come out of any writing workshop.
Unfettered writing—the most righteous kind.
One woman
shared a poem about a father who abandoned her & her younger sister before she
broke down crying in the middle of class. Another about growing up a Jew in a
Bronx tenement building filled with Latinos. “They taught me how to love,” she
said. Another about being White & privileged, born on the “right side” of
the track. How she’d sneak away to the “Black side,” the “wrong side.” How they
taught her about Jazz, & how she came to love them for it.
At the end
of the workshop, one of my students shared about teaching writing to special needs
children & children who came from violent backgrounds & how important it
was to make them feel safe—only then could they write. Then she turned to me
& said: “This is a safe room. I feel safe here,” everyone nodding their
heads in agreement.
For the
record, that was the single most rewarding workshop I’ve ever attended &
not because I was the one teaching it—I barely taught anything. I was more like
Ariadne in Inception—the architect
who designed the world—& they filled it with their ideas & creativity.
A
graduate of Florida Atlantic University's Creative Writing M.F.A. program,
Michael J. Pagan’s work has appeared in The Rumpus, DIAGRAM, Pacifica
Literary Review, Spork
Press, Verse, The Coachella
Review, BlazeVOX, Spittoon Magazine, Tupelo Press,
Menacing Hedge and Mad Hatters’
Review among
many others. He currently lives in Deerfield Beach, FL with his wife &
daughter.
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